My Roller Coaster Ride
It's like a roller coaster ride,
This life of mine.

At 20 year old, my daughter's birth was a high.
And it just kept getting better from there.

Until one day, to my surprise,
my daughter began to fall behind.
From this day forward,
we've had our ups and downs,
Some milestones being met,
While other lag behind.

So we finally decided to get her all checked out,
At 2 1/2 years of age,
a diagnoses of Autism,
I take all the blame.

What did I do wrong?
Was it something I eat?

I will never know.
But I do know,
Everything happens for a reason,
And she's heaven sent.

Sisterhood

Sisters are great.

Sisters are fun.

They share a bond

that no one can break.

Helping each other in

good times and bad,

They'll never forget

all the good times they've had.

The Past...

I should have thought twice before I walked through those doors...
the doors of uncertainty, instability, and remorse.
Laying there was a woman I knew...
barely holding on to whatever she could.
I had always blamed her and hated her for her lies...
but the only thing I wish now was that we wouldn't have to say our goodbyes.
For every tear she brought to my mother's eyes...
I knew she would pay far above in the skies.
But I see her lying there all wounded and broken...
and I can't help but pray...there is still much left unspoken.
Please don't take her, I silently pray...
as the machine pumps away the life that remains.
Her pain is my pain...
her guilt is my guilt...
If she doesn't make it through...
I don't know how we would.
Our lives are connected, the past is the past...
Please God bring her back...
and let the past be the past.

Dancing

Dancing

Intricate moves with my feet.

Long elegant lines with my legs.

Strength, power and drive with my mind.

Freedom, beauty and release from my heart.

My body sways, dips.

Steps and jumps.

My feet turn, my legs swing.

My heart pumps.

Agility, flexibility.

Determination and concentration.

Rewards of grace, elegance.

Content and retribution.

Dancing is my life.

It brings me peace.

Of all the things that dancing brings.

The best of all is its free.

Stupid Clowns

Laugh at me you stupid clown,

With your fake smile.

You tell me your happy stories,

When I know it's all a lie.

I can't believe I loved a clown.

So funny I thought you were.

You laughed and laughed

And put me in a trance.

I watched your act every day;

And I clapped and applauded

A standing ovation you got from me.

You ask me if I liked the show,

I lie just like you and say I did.

At first I thought a clown was the one for me,

But now that I see a clown is just not what I need.

You take your clown costume off.

Your work has been done.

I take your costume and put it on.

I'm the stupid clown,

Who laughs with a fake smile.

I tell you my happy stories,

and you know its all a lie.

You watch my act everyday,

And now applaud at me.

I think you know its time to leave,

Two clowns just can't be.

ThE LiFe oF a LaWnMoWeR

pLoWiNg DoWn ThE rOwS oF gReEn
I cAn SudDeNlY fEel ThE cOoL bReEzE
nOt KnOwIng If ThErE wIlL bE rAiN oR sHiNe
I cOnTiNuE gOiNg DoWn ThE lIne

WHAT IS A FRIEND?

Friends, are always there

when you need them.

Friends, stand by your side

no matter what.

Friends, always have a shoulder

to cry on.

You can call a friend in the middle of the night

and their always there to hear you

Even if their falling asleep.

Friends are just Friends!